The Crack In The Wall Where Doubt Crept In

So, as a teenager, I was just getting used to Charismatic thinking, and then one of my friends got shot in the head. He lay in the hospital on life support for four days, until he was declared brain dead. None of his peers were allowed to visit him, and I think every adult that went to see him immediately started to pray for his soul, a painless death, etc...

And, of course, he died. My prayers didn't work. We went to the funeral. We watched our friend who had accidentally shot him try to keep up some sort of 'cool' act while being destroyed on the insides.

I had no answer, no defence. Doubt came in and made a place for himself. I wasn't of much help to anyone else.

So, I've heard children, this summer, talking about God healing, and I really like that they believe; I am just afraid for them in the future. I hope they learn that it's not just about how much they believe, that it's not some shamanistic ritual where it'll work if they just get the steps right, etc...